Back To School....

Well, tomorrow is back to school for my kiddos, David and Ruthie, and I am not sure but I would venture to guess that I am more excited than they are!!!! Why, you may ask?? Not for the same reasons as most parnts after a long summer of having kids home but because it will be the first time that I am actually looking forward to walking them to the back of the school yard and standing and waiting with the other parents until the kids head off for their first day. Other years, the first day of school was dreaded because I would have to walk so far and then have to stand for a period of time before the kids went in...couple that with the fact that my knees and ankles and back were aching the whole time and the sweat was rolling down the middle of my back, and you probably guessed it was uncomfortable to say the least. Not only all of that from a physical perspective, but emotionally I was a wreck...feeling so conspicuous as the "biggest" mom of all the mom's and self conscious of my physical appearance and clothing...the anxiety I experienced as a result of my weight during even the most "normal" of activities was overwhelming.

This year, my heart is full as I anticipate escorting my children for their first day, Ruthie in grade 1 and David in grade 4. I am so grateful that o can now fully concentrate on spending these precious moments with my children instead of fretting and worrying and being so completely preoccupied with my weight that I forget the importance of the "now" with them...days and moments that will never come to pass again...

Today, I am so very thankful for the new perspective I have gained as a result of this journey...and especially, the fact that so much of the burden of weight has been lifted so that I can now truly "live" and enjoy each moment of my life....