The night before....

It was a busy day to say the least. First off to the hospital for the final pre op assessment and to meet the anesthesiologist to answer any questions and for them to have a final look at me before the deed is done!!! All went so very well and my runny nose did not even pose one bit of a problem!!! I am so happy that things are finally winding down and that all of the steps I have taken to this point have lead me to exactly where I want to be and need to be right at this moment in time. I met with my surgeon's office after in order to see the nutritionist who will help me with my post op diet and they were thrilled at the weight I had lost! The affirmed that they could see that I was more than ready for this new adventure in my life and that I have wrapped my mind around all aspects of the changes that I will need to make in my life.

I am just so grateful today that I am as healthy as I am despite my current weight of 400lbs and that I don't have serious medical complications heading into such an extensive surgery. There are so many other people who suffer greatly with other illnesses and hindrances as a result of their weight and I have been blessed with a supernatural strength that has enabled me to carry this amount of weight with the least amount of damage to my body....no high blood pressure, no high cholesterol, no diabetes, no worn out knees, joins or hips...I am otherwise healthy as a horse! And apparently I am a text book case heading into this surgery.

Words cannot express how excited I am to be getting ready tonight to take this next step in my journey tomorrow morning. I am sure that I won't sleep a wink...instead I will be dreaming of new red bicycles...and chasing my kids through the field...my hair blowing in the wind as I float along on the back of my beautiful horse...water skiing again with my Daddy like we used to (and giving him a run for his money at it too)...tonight my mind will be wandering up the mountain trails I will hike and the zip lines I will swing along, the hills I am going to ski and the trips that I will take, flying in an airplane comfortably in the seat...but most of all, I will be dreaming of the transformation that will take place over the next while that will finally expose the "real, authentic, genuine Ally-Girl"...the Ally that I am on the inside but who has been so hindered from true expression as a result of this weighty battle and for many years....that's where my mind will be as I place my head on my pillow and close my eyes tonight, for the final time, as the "old" Allison....