Saturday!
Well, today was my first full day with the kids since having surgery and I really wasn't sure what to expect. All in all it was a good day, but I have to admit, the mornings are so very hard for me. I got up relatively early and got all my vitamins and pother medications in as well as my protein shake and also got the kids fed, but then I was a noodle!! I laid back down on the couch while the kids played on the Wii for a short while and I know that I dozed in and out for a while. Needless to say, it was definitely a movie morning!! After I sort of got my feet under me shortly after noon, I was able to enjoy being with the kids a little more and I seemed to have a little more energy. I had a small bit of cottage cheese for lunch. David actually helped me make lunch for him and Ruthie. He put all the grilled cheese sandwiches together and buttered them all ready for me to put on the grill. He did such a good job...and he is doing a fantastic job "looking after me" since coming home. Ruthie set the table and got out all the drinks and David and I finished the grilled cheese and tomato soup. They gobbled up their lunch and then without me even asking they both loaded their dishes into the dishwasher. They are sooooooo grown up and I am so very proud of them. David even helped me this morning clean up the mess that the raccoons made of our garbage in the driveway!!! He wouldn't let me lift the garbage can up and put it back, instead he struggled to get it upright and put it back against the house!!
This afternoon was much better and by the time I actually got out of my jammies and into real clothes, I actually felt like doing a few things. David carried the vacuum cleaner up the stairs all by himself and after we cleaned the hamster and chinchilla cages, he vacuumed the entire top floor of the house. He even vacuumed my bedroom and did an excellent job of it too!!!
After we finished our jobs for the day we went outside for a while and went for a short walk up the street until it rained. It was an amazing feeling to be walking up the street with the kids. I can't even remember the last time we went for a leisurely walk together. It was another "first" for us and certainly a foretaste of what it surely to come in the future.
Each day I think that I feel a little stronger....its hard to tell sometimes because of my energy level and the low blood pressure. I know I feel good inside and I can feel the weight melting off my body. Everyday when I get dressed my clothes are just that much looser and I feel lighter on my feet. I don't huff and puff so badly when I walk up the stairs and I actually look forward to short walks around Shoppers Drug Mart instead of dreading them!!!!
Sometimes I forget that I have actually had the surgery....or I feel that it just isn't real yet...it is such a dream come true for me that it almost feels that it hasn't yet happened!!! Every moment I breathe now, I am breathing with a new depth and feeling of life...the surgery really has been a gift for me...a gift of life....to live a life that I had been deprived of for so long...a life that I never ever in a million years thought that I could live without this wonderful opportunity. I am so excited for my future...I am so excited for the many things I will do in my life now and the moments that I will enjoy that otherwise I would never have known. As I end my day today, my heart is overflowing with true gratefulness and thanksgiving for this amazing life-giving gift.
Well, today was my first full day with the kids since having surgery and I really wasn't sure what to expect. All in all it was a good day, but I have to admit, the mornings are so very hard for me. I got up relatively early and got all my vitamins and pother medications in as well as my protein shake and also got the kids fed, but then I was a noodle!! I laid back down on the couch while the kids played on the Wii for a short while and I know that I dozed in and out for a while. Needless to say, it was definitely a movie morning!! After I sort of got my feet under me shortly after noon, I was able to enjoy being with the kids a little more and I seemed to have a little more energy. I had a small bit of cottage cheese for lunch. David actually helped me make lunch for him and Ruthie. He put all the grilled cheese sandwiches together and buttered them all ready for me to put on the grill. He did such a good job...and he is doing a fantastic job "looking after me" since coming home. Ruthie set the table and got out all the drinks and David and I finished the grilled cheese and tomato soup. They gobbled up their lunch and then without me even asking they both loaded their dishes into the dishwasher. They are sooooooo grown up and I am so very proud of them. David even helped me this morning clean up the mess that the raccoons made of our garbage in the driveway!!! He wouldn't let me lift the garbage can up and put it back, instead he struggled to get it upright and put it back against the house!!
This afternoon was much better and by the time I actually got out of my jammies and into real clothes, I actually felt like doing a few things. David carried the vacuum cleaner up the stairs all by himself and after we cleaned the hamster and chinchilla cages, he vacuumed the entire top floor of the house. He even vacuumed my bedroom and did an excellent job of it too!!!
After we finished our jobs for the day we went outside for a while and went for a short walk up the street until it rained. It was an amazing feeling to be walking up the street with the kids. I can't even remember the last time we went for a leisurely walk together. It was another "first" for us and certainly a foretaste of what it surely to come in the future.
Each day I think that I feel a little stronger....its hard to tell sometimes because of my energy level and the low blood pressure. I know I feel good inside and I can feel the weight melting off my body. Everyday when I get dressed my clothes are just that much looser and I feel lighter on my feet. I don't huff and puff so badly when I walk up the stairs and I actually look forward to short walks around Shoppers Drug Mart instead of dreading them!!!!
Sometimes I forget that I have actually had the surgery....or I feel that it just isn't real yet...it is such a dream come true for me that it almost feels that it hasn't yet happened!!! Every moment I breathe now, I am breathing with a new depth and feeling of life...the surgery really has been a gift for me...a gift of life....to live a life that I had been deprived of for so long...a life that I never ever in a million years thought that I could live without this wonderful opportunity. I am so excited for my future...I am so excited for the many things I will do in my life now and the moments that I will enjoy that otherwise I would never have known. As I end my day today, my heart is overflowing with true gratefulness and thanksgiving for this amazing life-giving gift.
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